I sit in my own way, a boulder of complication and fears, even too afraid to do it standing. I am not alone. Unfortunately, there are so many of us who are shaking and quaking and just too craven to do anything. We want to do something great, wonderful, worthy but don't.
Excuses are easy. Excuses are more than easy, they are handy and light. Why try when you can just list the reasons to NOT?
I even use the excuses to lament over not doing something. Have you ever done that? I do, a lot. "I will never be a good writer because I never got my degree" or "I don't have enough time to write a novel". Yeah, sure, right. Do I believe it? Gods, no. When you tell yourself something untrue it rings as false as plastic bells. I hear plastic bells every time I shuttle a huge dream of mine to the back burner or turn the stove off entirely.
The problem is, there are so many avenues to what I want that ARE closed. When you make so many attempts (and hear the sound of guns shooting you down before you even get in the air) you lose focus. How much can you hurt before you stand down? How long before you sit in your own way?
So, I have something for us craven crusaders.
Pick one dream you've been longing for, one that has to persist and exist just for you to feel whole. Write down each fear you have and each bad thing that has happened that made you stop. Write them all out. You can put them on one sheet of paper or on many. Just get them out of you.
Then, when you are confident you got them all, go somewhere safe and set them ablaze. Or cut them up into tiny, worthless pieces. Maybe you could throw them in a lake, watching the writing disappear under the weight of water. Do something drastically dramatic to them (while keeping yourself safe, of course).
After your fears are gone, get busy. Find a different route to what you want. Wipe the dust off of the one story of your life you have kept in a dark drawer and get working.
If you don't know how to get what you want, talk to people. Sometimes, the most surprising revelations come from others. Seek me out, I'm better at helping others than myself; I think it is one of my biggest problems.
What if you fail? Well, easy. You go down in flames. But it is better to fail spectacularly and rise again than to shuffle your feet and sputter to embers. There is little worth in a dead spark. No one wants to go down in embers, right?